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happy birthday!

2008-03-27T09:16:00.000-07:00

happy birthday egg... happy happy birthday... =)

cameron trip.

2008-03-20T19:25:00.000-07:00

hi hi.. came back from cameron a week ago for a workshop thingy.. it was a new experience... the weather there is really very nice.. i love it so much.. imagine, there was not even one fan or air-conditioner there except for one air-con which is in the bank and it was not even switched on.. haha.. the roads leading to cameron can be very scary.. it's like those u see in initial-d but even more curvy and long.. and we were travelling in a bus! dont expect to be able to sleep.. even worse if u're by the window seat.. it was good... we ate fresh strawberries... pluck and eat.. we visited the rose centre, the tea plantation, the strawberries farm and the butterfly garden.. we had barbeque too.. it was really a great trip.. the feeling of bathing hot water early in the morning feels great.. looking forward to another cameron trip.. ^_^

yoyo!!

2008-03-18T23:51:00.000-07:00

another gentle reminder to myself. ;)

entrepreneurship day

2008-03-13T08:18:00.000-07:00

oh by the way, entrepreneurship day has ended.. we were the first stall to close.. it started with us waking up "so the very early" neh~~~~ i went buying kangkong vege for the lok lok.. for your information, our faculty has four stalls, each with 25 members.. we're selling fruit juice, cut fruits, fruits with chocolate dip, fruit salad and also lok lok or celup-celup.. for lok lok, we have fish ball, sotong ball, crab ball, kangkong, seafood tofu, wantan and a few others.. u can choose either boiled or deep fried. we fry or boil them on the spot with rice cooker or multi-puporse fryer. we have satay or thai chilli sauce.. ^_^ the day started bizarrely when we discovered that 4 tents were sharing only 1 electric plug!! we had to use extensions to connect all the electric appliances.. then the electric was like on and off.. and in the end the extension burned. our business depended on electricity entirely because of the rice cooker and also the juicer.. but luckily it went on quite well after a few while.. at first there were no business.. but as we reach peak hour, our customers kept coming... it was good that we were able to cover up our modal and manage to earn a little bit.. although we werent as successful as other groups, but i thought ours was the most meaningful.. all 25 of us had something to do.. =)

trip

2008-03-13T08:12:00.000-07:00

gonna be away for 3 days 2 nights. will be in cameron highlands for a workshop for cle. been a while since i'm it the mountains.. wonder if i will go barbaric.. o-e-o-e-ooooooooooooo!!!!!!!! hahaha.. but i have assignment to hand in on 19th!! argh,... someone please save me!

beauty lies in the eyes of the owner?

2008-03-11T08:45:00.000-07:00

i just saw yazman's video for nescafe kickstart.. i came across these words in one of his sketches.. so, beauty lies in the eyes of the owner or beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder? well, the more i think, the more vague it becomes.. there's no definite answer.. but of course to the person concerned, i think the earlier counts... imagine, u make decisions, u do things and u speak of things... of course only you would understand why u do so.. only you would know what you have taken into consideration, what are the consequeces, pros and cons.. so of course only u would appreciate it..

on the other hand, you have to be fair enough.. u cant expect all others to think like you, have same opinion and agree with your decisions right?

well, in short, i love my decisions. i love the things i am doing. no matter they're wrong or right. after all, it's MY decision. what can you do about it?

losing touch?

2008-03-11T08:05:00.000-07:00

not so soon.. i thought i would.. but it's great to be back on track.. life can really be better if kept simple.. although it may not be the case all the time.. keeping myself busy is good for the momeny.. =) woohoo!!

grace kelly.

2008-03-10T05:21:00.000-07:00

i know. it may have been released quite a long time ago. but it's just one of the few songs by mika that i like. posting the lyrics here. perhaps it describes what i am feeling at the moment. ;)

Grace Kelly Mika lyrics

Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty?
Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?
I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
I guess I'm a little bit shy
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me without making me try?
I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
I've gone identity mad!
I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!
How can I help it
How can I help it
How can I help what you think?
Hello my baby
Hello my baby
Putting my life on the brink
Why don't you like me
Why don't you like me
Why don't you like yourself?
Should I bend over?
Should I look older just to be put on your shelf?
I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
I've gone identity mad!
I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Walk out the door!
Say what you want to satisfy yourself
But you only want what everybody else says you should want
I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Walk out the door!
I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Walk out the door!

^_^

2008-03-05T05:56:00.000-08:00

hey hey peeps! went for international buffet last nite... jogoya at starhill.. had a great time, eating of course! there's load of stuff there.. japanese, french, even chinese herbal soup and all sorts.. there's also unlimited baskin n robins and haagen daaz.. it's definitely a place you would want to bring your frens or special someone.. i'll definitely go there again.. it's a great place... and the oysters.. yum yum.. it's also surprising that i actually calmed down from visiting that place... is it because of the people there? or is it because of the food? i have no idea..

sharing..

2008-03-03T00:27:00.001-08:00

something i came across in my contacts list in my msn.. "there's alwaz a proper place & proper moment 4 every improper thing.Wat matters de most is dat at least u do it,do it well"..

reminds me of my conversation with chris.. whatever decisions i make, i make it myself.. at least i dared to make those decisions. Eventhough it may turn out to be absolutely wrong, well at least i dare to take the responsibilities which may result from my decisions.. we can never be always right..

making decisions..

2008-03-03T00:12:00.000-08:00

may i know how you make decisions? making decisions have been harder since i came into uni.. there are too many things i have to consider.. and sometimes, thinking too much doesnt necessarily make you make better decisions.. if you have a chance to choose, would you rather make decisions based on your heart or your brain? the conclusion is... it depends.. both have their own good and bad.. but one thing for sure, try to understand why people make those kind of decisions.. they have their own reasonings.. we can always listen to their opinions and maybe give a little advice on what your opinions are.. but we are never in a position to judge them.. which is why i always tell my friends.. there are things in life that we can only see but never change them.. just accept them with an open heart... which i am still trying to do..

sorry but i need to motivate myself a bit.. haha..

2008-03-03T00:08:00.000-08:00

right.. as i was saying.. i need to move on.. i just cant afford to think too much.. let's get going!!

a new beginning?

2008-03-01T20:44:00.001-08:00

lawnite 07/08 is over.. all the works and efforts have finally come to an end.. everyone was in their best outfit.. they all looked amazing.. it's great to have this kind of event where we all can hang out together.. guess that's the one and only event where we can all have fun together.. the preparation for it was enjoyable.. had a good time.. the event can be said to have run smoothly.. though not all of it was as good as it was planned.. the waltz for instance.. i'm sure everyone were in a mess and did not dance according to the steps and music like what we have been doing in practice.. but surely, the dancing classes is what i will remember most.. it's something i wanted to do but didnt think i would do.. it's great.. looking at khang hong and ooi ling dancing in the media presentation was so sweet.. they're such a cute couple.. hope they will always be.. =) lawnite means a lot to me.. it's the point where everything comes to an end, and everything starts anew.. i'll put lawnite behind now.. but i will never forget that it was everything to me in my first year.. i'm at a lost now.. friendship, relationship, studies.. but i'm sure after a while, i will get back on my feet and discover my path.. all thanks to none other than egg egg again.. she's a motivation.. to all my friends, let's hope everything will be ok.. to miss x and miss y, i think i'll move on.. ;) a new day, a new beginning, a new me...

^_^

2008-01-02T07:58:00.001-08:00

i've got my turtle back!! it's REAL big now.. hahaha..

2007 ending. review and new year resolution.

2007-12-27T02:49:00.002-08:00

now that 2007 is over, let me have a review of what has happened this year and of course the new year resolution!! hmm.. the more important events this year has got to be the release of stpm results.. holy cow, never have i thought i would obtain straight a's.. thinking back, i was always the lazy one.. i dont listen to lesson, i dont do homeworks, i dont copy notes, i didnt even revise my subjects during stpm.. all i did was reading module answers lol!!! well, thank God for the result which led to securing a postion in where i am now.. =) this path, although i still do not know whether it's the correct path i should take , is after all, the better path..

i'm very lucky and blessed.. when compared to my friends, i know, that i am living a much better life.. they're far more miserable.. this year has been great.. it has made quite a change to my life.. though not physically.. *rolling on floor laughing* securing a scholarship is also another great news.. well let's just hope next year will not be less great if not better.. and for my new year resolutions, i just hope i can be more disciplined, more hardworking, less lazy, more outspoken, spend less, eat less, argh!! what the hell.. resolutions are just resolutions, whoever really fulfil them? haha.. most importantly, i cherish my friends and family.. let's hope my frens now will remain my frens next year.. and my family healthy and blessed.. woo hooo...

update!

2007-12-27T02:49:00.001-08:00

woohoo hi there boys and gals! i'm back! wanna wish everyone a happy xmas and a blessed new year! it's been a month and a half since i last updated and many things have happened.. well let me put it in a simple way..

met up with ex classmates and old friends -> started a relationship with someone -> christine and jeanette came to sibu -> went to miri (my birthplace!!) for trip (in the meantime, sibu was heavily flooded)-> broke up (haha just after three weeks!) -> the change -> xmas!!

pheww,, that was quite a lot events right? now now, i'm sure you're all veeeeeerrryyyy curious so i'm gonna share with all of you what has happened.. =) first week was dull, all the meet up with frens, yum cha's and bla bla bla's.. aha! i started a relationship with someone.. well, i was very happy.. i confessed, she agreed and we got together.. haha.. it was sweet for me.. i had all the sweet feelings of falling in love back.. it was worthwhile.. it feels great to be able to love someone..

then, christine and jeanette came to sibu.. sibu was boring and duh of course nothing much happened.. i think all they're gonna remember is kompia.. haha.. then we went to miri to visit henry! miri was a lot more fun than in sibu.. the visit this time changed my perception on miri.. previously i thought miri was a dull place.. there werent any friends there.. probably because i'm there this time with frens.. after that i broke up.. it was a hard time for me.. it happened in miri too..i was very down and sad.. by the way, a friend of mine called up and told me sibu was heavily flooded.. lucikly my housing area was not flooded.. when i was back in sibu i still felt sad because of the break up.. i was in no contact with anybody, except egg egg.. and i have to say thanks to egg egg for she has helped me move on.. she made me realise there are more in life than just boy girl relationship.. perhaps she doesnt realise what she has done but she's really cheered me up just like she always do.. thanks egg..from being sad i change and became happy.. i managed to put everything behind and start anew..

oh and something i left out, my results were out and i was so damn relieved i passed my papers.. pheww.. there ya go, and after that was xmas.. xmas this year was quite quiet.. went out with wei wei and david.. was good though.. it was a long time since i contacted anyone.. and now, 2007 is ending.. 2008 is coming.. the year of the golden rat if i'm not mistaken.. cheers!!

torty torty

2007-11-18T04:20:00.000-08:00

it's been a loooooong time since i last blogged.. hmm.. wasnt because of the exams.. i was lazy.. i'm going back to sibu tomorrow.. for the first time in five months.. what are my feelings? mixed.. i cant believe i'm in uni now.. but all in all, it was a great experience.. hope it's going to be like this for the next 4 years.. i've met new friends, but i've not forgotten old ones.. they're still in my mind.. though i may not get to contact them.. time really flies..

my turtle has been handed over to my good fren last week.. kinda miss it.. i still remember the first time i saw him.. there were three turtles in the tank at that time.. this particular one was the only one moving actively, stepping on the other two and looked at me.. he surely caught my attention.. looking at him moving so actively is quite interesting.. there are times i can look at him for half an hour.. even ah bun also said my turtle was very active.. now he's in klang.. i'm glad he has got companions... ah bun has two turtles too.. let's hope he doesnt get bullied.. and let's hope he doesnt bully the other two.. i'm still quite worried though.. not exactly worried actually.. just curious how he's living now.. my turtle's kinda fussy.. maybe i've pampered him too much.. he only eats fresh turtle pellets.. those which are thrown right in front of him.. even if u throw it in and he doesnt get to see it, he wont eat those pellets.. my god.. i even break the pellets into two for him to swallow it easier.. i'd wash him every few days.. and sometimes leave him on the table or balcony for a walk or two.. though there are times when i totally forgot about him and left him running around and went missing.. by the way, he still hasnt got any names yet.. any suggestions?

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2007-11-07T19:24:00.000-08:00

another round-up on what i've been doing these couple of days.. not much really.. the other day i had some fun though.. played kiddy games.. hehe.. first we played uhm, "pepsi-cola".it's a foot stepping game. opponents are eliminated once their foot are stepped on. then,we played abc stop. haha.. i cant imagine i actually did this.. we were screaming and laughing like mad and the whole college could hear us.. after that we proceeded to the basketball court, we played some futsal, then basketball and then the "monkey" game. i'm pretty sure u guys know what that is right? then we played a newly taught game, the finger game.. i dont know how to explain it but basically it's a musical game in which those making mistakes would have to add another finger till all their fingers are "used-up". we then sat at the cafeteria chatting until 3 something in the morning. henry and mi zheng showed us pictures of them in their school days. i guess i would have the chance to show them pictures of me when i was young too when they come to sibu in december. but maybe not those in my secondary school days. i looked damn ugly. anyway, looking forward to their visit in december. i will have the chance to be a tour guide for the first time! hehe.. but i am sure i'm gonna gain some kilo's while showing them sibu because there's nothing in sibu. all i can think of is food. oh, and we'll be heading to miri together. heard there's gonna be some jungle trekking. i miss jungle trekking. it's just my type of activity. :D

two weeks break. what have i been doing?

2007-11-03T00:07:00.000-07:00

it's another two weeks break before my last paper. what have i done for the first week? basically nothing. i moved my tortoise to a new home. =) it's a bigger one. it's what used to be my roommate's hamster house. but his hamster died. haha. oops. i shouldnt be laughing. i managed to watch transformers too. the movie i didnt get to watch when it was showed in cinemas. i also finished watching heroes season one. i also listened to jay chou's previous songs. i still think he composed way more nice songs than david tao and lee hom. the whole album of jay chou's songs in my computer is around 650 mb. and then, i managed to download and listened to jay chou's new songs. just a few. but currently rainbow being one of my favourites. controrary to my brother and clare's opinion, i actually liked the rap part. it's very good too. perhaps his new album is no where near his previous ones, but still i salute him for still expressing himself well and does what he wants. only within months, he released his directorial-debut film, released a new album and will be having tour concert starting from next month in shanghai. he'll also be writing songs for olympics 2008 and another movie next year. oh, and by the way, his film secret received 5 nominations for golden horse awards. although there's no nomination for best director, it's still a rather good achievement. and another thing to share, he's born an artiste. he's got the passion. that's what i like. i guess those working with him and for him sure enjoys it. they would be involved. it must be a fun environment. like previously he perform magics to his crew, invited one of his crew member's son to appear in "ting ma ma de hua", fang wen shan, his lyricist was also requested to feature as a leading character in one of his music videos. not to mention his fren "geng hong",who once said he loved acting, was also invited to feature in "zhui hou de zhan yi. his third album was named after his mother, ye hui mei, he wrote songs for his grandparents, his cousin was involved in his songs and concert. he also guided his friends nan chuan ma ma into the music industry and now acting. i like him. i dont like david tao!! oh by the way, i've also been listening to jay performing a song he wrote for jacky cheung lately - "Zhong Yu Zoi Yu Tin",a cantonese song.

and something to add on, i love cowboy on the run. for those who say that jay chou's songs are of the same style always, you are so wrong. there's always something new. david tao on the other hand always have the same style. simple style only. and have u noticed the sky in the background where jay chou sang on his lamborghini in the music video cai hong?? jay chou was actually filming his music video somewhere else the night before typhoon hit taiwan. when he saw the beautiful sunset sky, he immediately rushed the whole crew to the sea-side and filmed it. =)

exams..

2007-10-27T00:13:00.000-07:00

exams in another two days time and i have not touched any books yet.. haha.. let's just hope some miracle would happen.. well, it's a multiple choice question right? it's either a, b, c or d. what are the odds of failing it? hmm.. i'm not quite good in maths.. let's leave the calculation to you..

the amazing sony ericsson.. come read sony ericsson supporters!

2007-10-25T18:31:00.000-07:00

the amazing sony ericsson impressed me. i was at twelve college last night and we bumped into a few seniors. one of them was telling us her phone dropped when she was charging it. it broke into two. it was a flip phone so you could imagine how it broke exactly into two pieces. we kinda made fun of her and teased her. after a while we were curious and wanted to try whether it still worked because the keypad still omits light when it was switched on. so zen inserted his sim card and another senior called zen's number. to our surprise, the phone vibrated. yes! the piece with the keypad vibrated not the other piece with the LCD display. zen answered but of course he couldnt hear what the senior said on the other end of the line. but somehow when zen spoke, the senior burst out laughing. he could hear zen's voice from his phone. we all were amazed and laughed along. poor putri was there being teased. then they came up with another wicked idea, they wanted to try sending sms. they typed a msg using the keypad. they had to refer to another sony ericsson phone as the phones were similar in terms of all the access shortcuts. after typing, they sent it. again the message got through!!!!!!! hahaha...

a little update

2007-10-23T19:26:00.000-07:00

lalala~ i dont care.. looks like almost everyone's back.. i enjoyed the quiet atmosphere during the breaks.. hahaha..

i'm worried.

2007-10-21T08:55:00.001-07:00

my tortoise has been turning himself turtle very often lately. i'm worried. worried that if i am not around, who would save him? why has he been doing so? is it because he couldnt bear the music my roommate and i play? or is it because he has a lot of problem and is trying to escape? or is it because he is plain boring? he's too hyperactive. that was the reason i bought him at first.

digi man.

2007-10-19T13:06:00.001-07:00

was at ss2 mamak for dinner and saw the digi man.. took a photo.. this digi man's make up was not as original and nice as those in commercials.. this one has either gone to too many places and sweat a lot, or they had low budget for this... he's really ugly.. ewwwwww.....

finally... stars..

2007-10-19T13:01:00.001-07:00

i finally get to see stars in kl tonight. it's been a long time since i last saw any. it has been 4 months in kl and i have been wanting to see stars for quite some time. but everytime i look up in the sky in the night, no matter how clear the sky is, i couldnt see any. they say it's because the city's too bright therefore we cant see any of them. i was very disappointed. but as i was chatting with a fren at almost 2 am just now, i finally got to see a few.. very very tiny and minute.. almost couldnt see them.. i was so happy.. starry starry night~

jay, wang lee hom or david tao?

2007-10-17T10:01:00.000-07:00

david tao is bad.. lacks creativity, inconsistent and thinks highly of himself. to me, he's just another singer who has written a couple of decent songs. not at all impressive and worth to be called a superstar. lee hom and jay on the other hand are creative. very. jay has creativity undoubtedly. wad impresses me most is how consistent he is. he can produce and direct one movie this year and another will be out next year. he has not failed to produce at least one album a year. there are extra songs he produced for his movies. he writes songs for others. he has had many concerts every year. he knows magic, martial arts and piano. and u can see from every piece of his works, there are fine details that has never failed to impress. that is where u can see his creativity which many has denied him of. and about lee hom, i think he too is consistent and has talent. he knows how to play a variety of musical instruments. david is old and doesnt produce albums consistently. those who thinks his songs are nice especially those old ones can go bang their head on the wall. i mean well yes he does have a couple of decent songs but come on, who hasnt? the stuff he produced of late are plain boring especially the kiddy song with jolin. and not to mention the two songs he copied from teresa teng!!! LAME..

lately.

2007-10-15T07:18:00.000-07:00

i'm so surprised at how fast i can forget or let go of something. it's good. i'm happy about it. haha. this means i can do away with things easily. there is no over-dependance on anything or anyone. that's who i am. ;)

i've been wanting to listen to songs lately. and i mean nice ones. any recommendations? preferably chinese songs..

another sunday.

2007-10-14T03:02:00.002-07:00

cecilia came and i was out with her today to times square. i met alvin and wendy. it's such a small world. even alvin said that to me. haha. of all the places, we met in a lift when i was about to go back to uni. this is the third or fourth time i saw alvin in kl. what a small small world.. hehe.. by the way, i need to stop using "beh agak"!!!

yes.

2007-10-14T03:02:00.001-07:00

yes!!

why

2007-10-12T10:39:00.000-07:00

why?

it's mid sem break..

2007-10-11T21:50:00.000-07:00

holiday has started and will last for 3 weeks. it's quite in the campus.sometimes i'll feel lonely. but luckily there are still some who can accompany me. it's also a time for me to study. looks like i need to change myself a bit. i'm quite sad these few days but for sure i'll get through it soon. it's time to move on. i'll put my personal problems behind and focus on what i need to do. it wont be long until i'm back on track. =) looking forward to returning to hometown..

am i old enough?

2007-10-10T12:10:00.000-07:00

how old am i? say 19? i think i am old enough to think. i should be able to handle my own problems. though i may need people to help me sometimes. i really think i can do it. i can think and solve my problems. but if you see me having problems do give me a hand. help me. i should be able to solve my own problems. thanks wei. i know wad to do.

lol

2007-10-09T20:36:00.000-07:00

hahahahahahahahahahaaha.crazy.

Relieved.

2007-10-08T05:23:00.000-07:00

we've received back our legal methods assignment. i was very happy with the grade i scored. an A. hehe.. i was also happy with the peer evaluation marks. the lowest in our tutorial group was 8.2 which was a lot higher than other tutorial groups. thanks to my tutorial group members! by the way, raya's approaching. everyone will be going back to their hometown and there'll be only a few left in the uni. guess i'll be having a few very peaceful weeks. but exam's after holiday. i have to work hard. looks like i have to put a stop to the last minute thingy. all in all, the last few days were really happy ones. look forward to having more happy moments, if i could.

Kenangan Terindah - Samsons.

2007-10-08T05:20:00.000-07:00

i have been listening a lot to this song lately. i first heard it during the CLE seminar. it's already out for 2 years and only now i've heard it. it's quite a nice song. i like it. perhaps u might wanna listen to it too. =)

crap.

2007-10-07T00:38:00.000-07:00

i was actually writing a lot of stuff about love. then i decided not to post it out. love is just too complex. it can be simple, it can be complicated. it can be happy, it can be sad. plus, i dont have enough experience to write about it. but one thing for sure, love and music goes together. love will make you think a lot. but it's nice to think about it sometimes. it makes you get carried away. dont you agree with me? =)

happy.

2007-10-05T10:41:00.001-07:00

by the way i am happy today. well, at least this morning. @_*

hiaks hiaks..

2007-10-05T10:34:00.000-07:00

i've finally get my keys from my bag, which has been in the faculty for three days. haha. i am so terrible. there are times when someone wants you to do something and you just try to avoid me. if you do so, you are like me. always avoiding responsibilities. why? because personally, i dont think i can handle responsibilities well. i just dont have the discipline. which is why it is a boulder blocking me from achieving greater things. i never want to try, and if i never try, i never will achieve anything. hope i can someday have a breakthrough. like the breakthrough i've achieved previously. i am looking forward =)

thanks ^_^

2007-10-05T10:33:00.000-07:00

happy but... argh... hope i dont regret it.....

be true to yourself.

2007-10-04T08:30:00.000-07:00

we are all over the place everyday. school, home, shopping complexes and outside. do you know that how priceless your freedom is? there are people out there who are not so lucky. there are people out there who do not have freedom.

today, there was a CLE seminar in our faculty. CLE stands for Clinical Legal Education. it's quite a new programme. currently, we're more focused on juvenile justice. so far, we've had three projects. Sekolah Tunas Bakti, Henry Gurney Girls School and Kajang Prison. when i watched the video clip today i almost wept. the picture of the torns on the fence of the prison really made me felt terrible. even more when i know of their story and their thoughts.

they were the better of persons. they deserved the world more than many of us hypocrites and snobs. but this is how the world is. there are many times when i told my friends, "there are many things in this world we can only see but couldnt help".

there are many jerks in this world. sometimes i do question whether there is any justice in this world. wad is justice to you? is it the law? or is it the humane aspect? think about it.

this has led me back to when i was in my lower secondary days. there was one moral value we learned. "kesederhanaan". what does it mean to you? to me, it means a lot.

i had a chat with a fren just now. there are types of people we both despise and dislike. i admit we were stereotyping these people into categories. but we still think it is true. let's not get personal and list out the types of people we despise. all i want to say is, i do not care how you treat me, but just be considerate. do not go to the extreme. be nice to people who have fallen and are more unlucky. they need you. they need us. whenever you do something, be sure you are true to yourself. have conscience. =)

452436

2007-10-03T08:47:00.000-07:00

someone has finally known the significance of these numbers. ^_^

here i go again..

2007-10-02T08:19:00.000-07:00

it's 12 am. i have contracts test today and i've not even started reading. here i am in my room biting away my curry puff. oh well, looks like i really am a lazy worm.. ^_^ study week's coming and so is the year end's sem break. i am so disorganised now. tonnes of things to do but still relaxing. i'm quite confused now. can anybody help? =)

politics.

2007-10-01T07:10:00.000-07:00

dr. azmi sharom said today in his talk about democracy in elections that he is bored with student politics especially in this era where most of the things are with interference from the university. the same goes to me. i dont get involved in politics. but politics in the faculty is starting to get interesting. i finally get to know someone who hates me today. i mean i do realise there might be others who dislikes me or hate me. but today, i've finally come to know someone who officially hates me.. i love it.. it's getting interesting.. haha... crazy... like i care..

mam mam.

2007-09-30T06:27:00.000-07:00

i had a great meal at my aunt's place on last night with my relatives and family. some sort of a reunion dinner. there's a big fish - steamed. the way i like it most. it's kinda weird cause it's the first time i cant finish a steamed fish. there's also steamed chicken with my grandma's sauce, veges, mushroom, prawns and so on. then today i had chicken rice for breakfast, ice cream (yeap, strawberry cheesecake from baskin n robin's again) for tea. yes i skipped lunch. then i had a wrapper from hot and rou, cheese and chicken. it was a first for me. tastes good. and then i had mint and chocolate doughnut from dunkin doughnuts (omg, there's another piece of lime doughnut in my room) at around 5. i have been eating a lot. need to go on a diet. *sob sob*

apples.

2007-09-30T06:08:00.000-07:00

apples remind me of the movie "Secret". an apple a day keep the doctors away. that's what Anthony Wong (father of Ye Xiang Lun) in that movie said. have you watched "Secret"? for a rookie director, it is a movie which will surprise you. like my brother said, it's a movie with good plot, good cinematography but just some lame dialogues. speaking of secrets, do you ever have a secret which you cant tell to anyone at all? a secret in which you have to keep to yourself because once you tell it out, your life would turn into a miserable one? i do. i have a secret which cannot be told. sometimes i find it quite a burden and sometimes am saddened by it. when can i tell this secret?? this post seems a little weird. it is not like what its title is supposed to be. *smiles*

T.G.I. friday!

2007-09-28T09:14:00.000-07:00

journals done, reports done and all are submitted. basically it was nothing but crap. i dont care. as long as i have submitted and done my job. so glad it's over. it has been two hectic days. by the way, you dont have to try and "korek maklumat" from me. you will never know what i'm thinking. heheh..

yawnz i think i'm a little crazy.as usual.

2007-09-26T21:32:00.001-07:00

some have passed up the journals and reports today while i'm still here only starting to do it. i have 12 journals and 3 reports to hand in tomorrow. some people says i am crazy for doing this thing last minute. extremely last minute. haha. hope i will be able to finish it in time.

oh by the way, not all the photos are lost in my phone. ^_^V at least the more important ones are not lost. hehe..

lost memories

2007-09-26T00:23:00.001-07:00

i lost the pictures in my handphone. i accidentally deleted them. heartbroken.

there will be light at the end of the tunnel.

2007-09-24T05:24:00.000-07:00

this post is for all my friends out there who feels the heat. i can feel that a lot of you are getting stressed up and tensed. but always remember, there'll be light at the end of the tunnel. we all know that we'll be a bit busier than usual these two weeks. i'm sure you might find it tough. goodluck to all of you. i know you have your own errands to run and works to do. so, goodluck to you guys. especially wei wei, henry, mi zheng and also gary. dont panick just yet and faint. ;) after all, i have 12 journals and 3 reports to write, presentation tomorrow, contracts test, contracts tutorial, km (hopefully someone does this for me, again! sorry jeanette =P), donation drive (rm100 before thursday! and i have collected rm0 so far!!), calling up firms, debate discussions, editorial work on lewsletter for debate and also a t shirt to design. i've not started on any of these yet and here i am in the cyber cafe blogging. so dont give up ya! =P chill guys..

i have never tried chasing a girl before.

2007-09-24T03:31:00.000-07:00

hm... the other day i was telling my friend about me never chasing a girl before.

me: come to think of it, i have never chased a girl before. can you believe how useless i am?

her: ya loh, see how useless u are.. what about your ex-gf?

me: we started dating online. i remember it was her asking whether i would wan to be her bf. then we met during valentine's and it all began.

when will i go and chase a girl then? i am sure this is something some of my frens are curious about. sometimes i have to ask myself too. when will i go chase a girl? do i have the guts to go chase a girl?

the problem now is. . is there a girl i want to chase? is there a girl that i want to be with now? is there a girl i admire now? i HONESTLY tell u. i have no idea. i dont know.

maybe when i have found someone i really like and think suits me, i will chase her. but i think by the time i do so much thinking, that girl would already have someone else.

i was having a little talk with my fren, jeanette, the other day. she said at our stage of life (oh, this sucks), it is hard for us just to get into a relationship just like that without thinking properly. it's very hard (not impossible) for a pair to just turn into a couple just like that.

in another conversation with another fren, ah bun, she said that she's crazy but she's rational. i can see that she is a happy go lucky type which i really admire. i wan to be like her but it's hard. but i can see she's a very smart girl too. very smart. or should i say high eq. very high.

to ah bun, i say u're smart is the same as u saying urself rational.

flower? or no flower?

2007-09-22T08:15:00.001-07:00

so, we all know what flower heart means, right? (uhm, not right. it's actually what the chinese called playboy)

so, i've been very nice to certain people for now.. in fact i'm trying to be nice to everyone. but.. sometimes it's not really a good idea. people tend to say things about you. perhaps i am extra nice to certain people. but my intention is the same. i apologize if my being nice to certain people makes any of you think that i am only nice to that few people. please dont think i only prioritize, care or think they are important. each and every close friend is important to me.

i know. sometimes we tend to stick to one view,which is wad u see with your eyes. but please do make an effort to think from another perspective. there are times when we do not know the whole story. and there are times when the person himself cant tell u much. please be understanding. you will never know what i have in mind. i am very unpredictable. trust me.

inter-personal relations

2007-09-21T22:58:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. inter-personal relations, public relations, u casocial skills or politics.. wadever ll them.. have u ever think about this kind of stuff? perhaps you will only think about it when u grow up, or when u actually experience it.. some ppl only think about it after they suffer the consequences of not handling relations well.. while others like me, have a rough idea of it since young. it does not mean that i am very wicked or taking precaution so that nobody will stab me.. all i want is to be nice to everybody.. to be my true self and know each person. all i wan is just to be friendly and leave an impression to everyone that i meet that i am a person who can be trusted. the fact is, i am a really nice person. but that doesnt mean i can be bullied and used or that i am a person with no limits. i can be cruel and wicked too. if you are nice to me, i will be nice and willing to help u more than ever. after all, i am a nice person! =)

friends.

2007-09-20T09:40:00.000-07:00

this is gary lim a.k.a. kwok ken ji or kong keng kuat. he's my senior and also henry's third year buddy.

group photo in lecture hall. got names o.. so read urselves la.. haha.. where is brother!!!??

there is brother! haha.. no wear specs.. haha..

this is gerard. he is one of my roommates. he has two hamsters and normally i reload buy from him. from sabah o..

this is chin chew. or sometimes i call cin cao. or just jiao. hahaha..also one of my roomates. from penang o.

*ok la.. these photos is just a brief introduction to my closer friends. i will introduce more next time. with their candid photos and what kind of a person they are!!!

slangs...

2007-09-20T08:29:00.000-07:00

do u have certain slangs that u always say? slangs as in words or phrases that u would say habitually? for example, walao eh, pek cek, wahseh and so on? well, i actually dont have.. i mean used to. now that i am here in the university, i've been influenced so greatly by my friends that i am actually saying slangs habitually, without me knowing it. well, u know.. a person like me who used to be an introvert, now being opened up.. so.. i might get influenced easily.. perhaps only these slangs and not others.. not feelings, not way of thinking and definitely not emotions (emotions maybe by someone.heheh) so, u might wanna know what type of slangs i would say huh? well, it first started with "gei ni si" (direct translation would be, give u die), then it went on to "shou bu liao" (hmmm... cant stand it?), then it became si lor.. (die lor) and then "ba lia" (which means low standard) now it's "agak a bit" (this i dont know how to translate, but it means more or less the same as "u sederhana sikit?") haha.,. i have no idea what has happened to me.. perhaps my coursemates influence me too much.thinking back to when i was in sibu, i actually had been saying slangs too.. for example like "mo xing wor" (direct translation would be "no heart dy", but it's actually used when someone said something that makes u "zha dao") then, back then i also used to say "zhei yi la".. (which means "let it be") there were more. i couldnt list it all. WHAT THE HECK!!!?? what has happened to me? using all these slangs would lead to my brother and sister teasing and critisizing me. they would certainly brand me as NCAA! (NO CLASS AT ALL!!!) *sob sob* but of late, i have learnt another slang that can be used. "you think i care ah!?" oh crap. i screwed myself. badly. *laughs*

mixed feelings.

2007-09-19T08:16:00.000-07:00

i'm having mixed feelings. what does it mean by mixed feelings? it's like when u mix alcohol with soup. eww. *laughs* what kind of a person would describe mixed feelings with alcohol and soup? a sick person. *drops* anyway, speaking of which, it reminds of the ice cream i ate at baskin n robins today. the one with the alcohol (i forgot the name) and the strawberry cheesecake ice cream.. yummy! (uhm, maybe not the alcohol one) she has got weird taste i may say? but one think i would agree is that the shoes that she buys are to my liking (as in acceptable). so far i've not came across any girl who has chosen shoes to my liking. please dont think that i'm sick. it's not that i would go and go see girls buy shoes. it's just something i've noticed. anyway, going back to wad i first mentioned. why am i having mixed feelings? hmmm.. maybe because i have to think about a little bit of everything? mum and bro coming to kl, stuff to do for studies, assignments, girls (hahahaha!!!), friends ( oh cecilia coming to kl!)..... what else? basically i know i have tonnes of things i need to do. but i dont know where to start. i'm not worried also. what can worry me anyway? haha. sometimes i really think that i am lucky compared to my other coursemates and friends. they're always worried over is it because nothing. i am too calm? or is it because they're not good at managing emotions? to be honest, those who cry during this time have no idea what they will face in the future. if they're already sobbing over small things, i dont dare imagine how they'll survive in the future. enough of picking on them. i should just mind my own business. no worries iggy.. no worries.. relax... heheh.. =)