mam mam.

i had a great meal at my aunt's place on last night with my relatives and family. some sort of a reunion dinner. there's a big fish - steamed. the way i like it most. it's kinda weird cause it's the first time i cant finish a steamed fish. there's also steamed chicken with my grandma's sauce, veges, mushroom, prawns and so on. then today i had chicken rice for breakfast, ice cream (yeap, strawberry cheesecake from baskin n robin's again) for tea. yes i skipped lunch. then i had a wrapper from hot and rou, cheese and chicken. it was a first for me. tastes good. and then i had mint and chocolate doughnut from dunkin doughnuts (omg, there's another piece of lime doughnut in my room) at around 5. i have been eating a lot. need to go on a diet. *sob sob*

apples.

apples remind me of the movie "Secret". an apple a day keep the doctors away. that's what Anthony Wong (father of Ye Xiang Lun) in that movie said. have you watched "Secret"? for a rookie director, it is a movie which will surprise you. like my brother said, it's a movie with good plot, good cinematography but just some lame dialogues. speaking of secrets, do you ever have a secret which you cant tell to anyone at all? a secret in which you have to keep to yourself because once you tell it out, your life would turn into a miserable one? i do. i have a secret which cannot be told. sometimes i find it quite a burden and sometimes am saddened by it. when can i tell this secret?? this post seems a little weird. it is not like what its title is supposed to be. *smiles*

T.G.I. friday!

journals done, reports done and all are submitted. basically it was nothing but crap. i dont care. as long as i have submitted and done my job. so glad it's over. it has been two hectic days. by the way, you dont have to try and "korek maklumat" from me. you will never know what i'm thinking. heheh..

*yawnz* i think i'm a little crazy.as usual.

some have passed up the journals and reports today while i'm still here only starting to do it. i have 12 journals and 3 reports to hand in tomorrow. some people says i am crazy for doing this thing last minute. extremely last minute. haha. hope i will be able to finish it in time.

oh by the way, not all the photos are lost in my phone. ^_^V at least the more important ones are not lost. hehe..

lost memories

i lost the pictures in my handphone. i accidentally deleted them. heartbroken.

there will be light at the end of the tunnel.

this post is for all my friends out there who feels the heat. i can feel that a lot of you are getting stressed up and tensed. but always remember, there'll be light at the end of the tunnel. we all know that we'll be a bit busier than usual these two weeks. i'm sure you might find it tough. goodluck to all of you. i know you have your own errands to run and works to do. so, goodluck to you guys. especially wei wei, henry, mi zheng and also gary. dont panick just yet and faint. ;) after all, i have 12 journals and 3 reports to write, presentation tomorrow, contracts test, contracts tutorial, km (hopefully someone does this for me, again! sorry jeanette =P), donation drive (rm100 before thursday! and i have collected rm0 so far!!), calling up firms, debate discussions, editorial work on lewsletter for debate and also a t shirt to design. i've not started on any of these yet and here i am in the cyber cafe blogging. so dont give up ya! =P chill guys..

i have never tried chasing a girl before.

hm... the other day i was telling my friend about me never chasing a girl before.

me: come to think of it, i have never chased a girl before. can you believe how useless i am?

her: ya loh, see how useless u are.. what about your ex-gf?

me: we started dating online. i remember it was her asking whether i would wan to be her bf. then we met during valentine's and it all began.

when will i go and chase a girl then? i am sure this is something some of my frens are curious about. sometimes i have to ask myself too. when will i go chase a girl? do i have the guts to go chase a girl?

the problem now is. . is there a girl i want to chase? is there a girl that i want to be with now? is there a girl i admire now? i HONESTLY tell u. i have no idea. i dont know.

maybe when i have found someone i really like and think suits me, i will chase her. but i think by the time i do so much thinking, that girl would already have someone else.

i was having a little talk with my fren, jeanette, the other day. she said at our stage of life (oh, this sucks), it is hard for us just to get into a relationship just like that without thinking properly. it's very hard (not impossible) for a pair to just turn into a couple just like that.

in another conversation with another fren, ah bun, she said that she's crazy but she's rational. i can see that she is a happy go lucky type which i really admire. i wan to be like her but it's hard. but i can see she's a very smart girl too. very smart. or should i say high eq. very high.

to ah bun, i say u're smart is the same as u saying urself rational.

flower? or no flower?

so, we all know what flower heart means, right? (uhm, not right. it's actually what the chinese called playboy)

so, i've been very nice to certain people for now.. in fact i'm trying to be nice to everyone. but.. sometimes it's not really a good idea. people tend to say things about you. perhaps i am extra nice to certain people. but my intention is the same. i apologize if my being nice to certain people makes any of you think that i am only nice to that few people. please dont think i only prioritize, care or think they are important. each and every close friend is important to me.

i know. sometimes we tend to stick to one view,which is wad u see with your eyes. but please do make an effort to think from another perspective. there are times when we do not know the whole story. and there are times when the person himself cant tell u much. please be understanding. you will never know what i have in mind. i am very unpredictable. trust me.

inter-personal relations

hmmm.. inter-personal relations, public relations, u casocial skills or politics.. wadever ll them.. have u ever think about this kind of stuff? perhaps you will only think about it when u grow up, or when u actually experience it.. some ppl only think about it after they suffer the consequences of not handling relations well.. while others like me, have a rough idea of it since young. it does not mean that i am very wicked or taking precaution so that nobody will stab me.. all i want is to be nice to everybody.. to be my true self and know each person. all i wan is just to be friendly and leave an impression to everyone that i meet that i am a person who can be trusted. the fact is, i am a really nice person. but that doesnt mean i can be bullied and used or that i am a person with no limits. i can be cruel and wicked too. if you are nice to me, i will be nice and willing to help u more than ever. after all, i am a nice person! =)

friends.

this is gary lim a.k.a. kwok ken ji or kong keng kuat. he's my senior and also henry's third year buddy.

group photo in lecture hall. got names o.. so read urselves la.. haha.. where is brother!!!??

there is brother! haha.. no wear specs.. haha..

this is gerard. he is one of my roommates. he has two hamsters and normally i reload buy from him. from sabah o..

this is chin chew. or sometimes i call cin cao. or just jiao. hahaha..also one of my roomates. from penang o.

*ok la.. these photos is just a brief introduction to my closer friends. i will introduce more next time. with their candid photos and what kind of a person they are!!!

slangs...

do u have certain slangs that u always say? slangs as in words or phrases that u would say habitually? for example, walao eh, pek cek, wahseh and so on? well, i actually dont have.. i mean used to. now that i am here in the university, i've been influenced so greatly by my friends that i am actually saying slangs habitually, without me knowing it. well, u know.. a person like me who used to be an introvert, now being opened up.. so.. i might get influenced easily.. perhaps only these slangs and not others.. not feelings, not way of thinking and definitely not emotions (emotions maybe by someone.heheh) so, u might wanna know what type of slangs i would say huh? well, it first started with "gei ni si" (direct translation would be, give u die), then it went on to "shou bu liao" (hmmm... cant stand it?), then it became si lor.. (die lor) and then "ba lia" (which means low standard) now it's "agak a bit" (this i dont know how to translate, but it means more or less the same as "u sederhana sikit?") haha.,. i have no idea what has happened to me.. perhaps my coursemates influence me too much.thinking back to when i was in sibu, i actually had been saying slangs too.. for example like "mo xing wor" (direct translation would be "no heart dy", but it's actually used when someone said something that makes u "zha dao") then, back then i also used to say "zhei yi la".. (which means "let it be") there were more. i couldnt list it all. WHAT THE HECK!!!?? what has happened to me? using all these slangs would lead to my brother and sister teasing and critisizing me. they would certainly brand me as NCAA! (NO CLASS AT ALL!!!) *sob sob* but of late, i have learnt another slang that can be used. "you think i care ah!?" oh crap. i screwed myself. badly. *laughs*

mixed feelings.

i'm having mixed feelings. what does it mean by mixed feelings? it's like when u mix alcohol with soup. eww. *laughs* what kind of a person would describe mixed feelings with alcohol and soup? a sick person. *drops* anyway, speaking of which, it reminds of the ice cream i ate at baskin n robins today. the one with the alcohol (i forgot the name) and the strawberry cheesecake ice cream.. yummy! (uhm, maybe not the alcohol one) she has got weird taste i may say? but one think i would agree is that the shoes that she buys are to my liking (as in acceptable). so far i've not came across any girl who has chosen shoes to my liking. please dont think that i'm sick. it's not that i would go and go see girls buy shoes. it's just something i've noticed. anyway, going back to wad i first mentioned. why am i having mixed feelings? hmmm.. maybe because i have to think about a little bit of everything? mum and bro coming to kl, stuff to do for studies, assignments, girls (hahahaha!!!), friends ( oh cecilia coming to kl!)..... what else? basically i know i have tonnes of things i need to do. but i dont know where to start. i'm not worried also. what can worry me anyway? haha. sometimes i really think that i am lucky compared to my other coursemates and friends. they're always worried over is it because nothing. i am too calm? or is it because they're not good at managing emotions? to be honest, those who cry during this time have no idea what they will face in the future. if they're already sobbing over small things, i dont dare imagine how they'll survive in the future. enough of picking on them. i should just mind my own business. no worries iggy.. no worries.. relax... heheh.. =)